“We are all gonna die. We don’t get much say in how or when. But we do get to decide how we are gonna live. So do it. Decide. Is this the life you want to live? Is this the person you want to love? Is this the best you can be? Can you be stronger? Kinder? More compassionate? Decide. Breathe in. Breathe out. And decide.”—Richard Webber, Grey’s Anatomy
Spent the first day of 2013 with G and my Furla D-Light S Bauletto satchel, sipping on iced mocha and an amazingly refreshing Pineapple Pitstop, savoring a red snapper and soba in broth and old-fashioned American sliders. Noms.
“That was the thing. You just never knew. Forever was so many different things. It was always changing, it was what everything was really all about. It was twenty minutes, or a hundred years, or just this instant, or any instant I wished would last and last. But there was one truth about forever that really mattered, and that was this: it was happening, right then, and every moment afterwards.”—Sarah Dessen, The Truth about Forever
There it goes again. That heavy feeling in your chest when you desire to not speak or move. All you want to do is close your eyes and sleep, because the process of being broken is incredibly exhausting. You attempt your best to make your days fulfilling, but no matter how hard you try you can’t seem to connect to anyone or anything. If you had a choice you’d prefer to be numb, and not feel anything at all if it means the aching would stop. You have no concrete idea as to what to do or how to feel— all you know for sure is that you want to be okay.
G. introduced me to Saveur at Purvis Street on our 2nd anniversary this year. French, affordable, delish - what’s not to love?
What we had:
Pan Fried Foie Gras with Lentil and Pickled Onion
Duck Rillette with Butter Bread
Crispy Barramundi with Crab Potato and French Bean
Beef Bourguignon with Root Vegetables and Mixed Greens
Definitely going back when we get the chance to!
I miss my long hair.
(change being change, and change being inevitable) I miss being sure of things, of decisions.
(thoughts about how being contented is a privilege) I miss knowing how I want to live my life.
(these panic-inducing, engulfing grey areas) I miss not being in the know.
19 May 2012 -LeSportsac’s ‘We Spot You Carrying LeSportsac’ Contest
PARCO next NEXT! fashion show at Audi Fashion Festival
A day of wondrous fashion and style, shared with Kel and Fairygodsis.
credits to the Future Fashion Now photographer who took this shot
Yes, that is a parrot on my head. I received many curious stares and double-takes from passers-by and fashion show guests. Some lady even asked if I was working for the Singapore Bird Park. Anyways, Fairygodsister’s bag was a definite head-turner as well. Looks animated yes?
Fairygodsis Hola! bag from Jump From Paper, Breton stripes top from smooch.com.sg, Forever 21 skirt, Jil Sander x Uniqlo (+J Collection) beret, black wedges from online
Kelvin H&M shirt, Freshbox berms, shoes from The Corner Shop, Tommy Hilfiger watch, HE by Mango sunglasses
Me, myself and I Parrot headband, panther shift dress and gold bar necklace from BKK, 3D pyramid necklace from Taipei, Riot Loco studded choker, Chomel vintage belt, Miss L-fire monster wedges
Organic Cotton Dress, SGD 139, Conscious Collection by H&M
If buying this dress means I’ll be supporting eco-consciousness, then I’m all for it.
Okay, who am I kidding? It’s gorgeous, in all its lime-green, neon yellow glory!
"As babies, we were easy. One cry meant you were hungry, another you were tired.
It’s only as adults that we become difficult. We start to hide our feelings, put up walls. It gets to the point where we don’t really know what anyone thinks or feels.
Without meaning to, we become masters of disguise.”
We were lucky guests of the Paul Smith MultiStripe Mini Private Launch Event, held at The Hilton Singapore. The full set of photos taken are on my FB, but here’s a photo highlights post of us, decked in shades of pink -
Fairygodsis LittleRedHeels Flowers Mario blouson, ZARA skirt, Bagspace.sg satchel, schu sandals
G. Tailored wingtip-collared shirt, pink blazer, grey skinnies and black shoes from Taipei
Me, myself and I
Club Monaco silk blouse, Lucyd Acyd skirt, Mulberry Tillie Hobo bag, ZARA glitter pumps
The first time my parents brought me to watch Titanic, I was nine and couldn’t understand the real depth of the film. I had a sudden urge to re-watch it this evening, and I did. It was heart-wrenching, incredibly horrifying, and Kate Winslet, well, she was truly the star, every bit the poor little rich girl, no doubts regarding her full commitment to the role.
Thoughts of survival were running through my head the whole time (regardless of the fact that I already knew of the inevitable ending) - should have done this instead of that, should have tried to get on a lifeboat, should have tried to look for something to float on etc. etc.
Okay, I’ll admit it. It was every bit as good, every bit as epic the second time round. To those watching the 3D version coming up soon, do share your experience!
“Life will break you. Nobody can protect you from that, and living alone won’t either, for solitude will also break you with its yearning. You have to love. You have to feel. It is the reason you are here on earth. You are here to risk your heart. You are here to be swallowed up. And when it happens that you are broken, or betrayed, or left, or hurt, or death brushes near, let yourself sit by an apple tree and listen to the apples falling all around you in heaps, wasting their sweetness. Tell yourself you tasted as many as you could.”—Louise Erdrich, The Painted Drum (via bookmania)
“And if a woman should say she doesn’t want to have children at all, the world is apt to go decidedly peculiar: ‘Ooooh, don’t speak too soon,’ it will say - as if knowing whether or not you’re the kind of person who desires to make a whole other human being in your guts, out of sex and food, then have the rest of your life revolve around its welfare, is a breezy, ‘Hey - whevs’ decision. Like electing to have a picnic on an unexpectedly sunny day or changing the background picture on your desktop. ‘When you meet the right man, you’ll change your mind, dear,’ the world will say, with an odd, aggressive smugness.”—Caitlin Moran, How to Be a Woman
On Ant: Sweater and shirt from Domanchi
On G.: Red-green shirt and wool shoes from Taipei, white jeans from Pull & Bear
On me: Quilted skirt dress from H&M, candy bag from Furla, glitter heels from ZARA
It’s a trait I find to be both my strength and my weakness. I notice things that are not supposed to be seen and I don’t know if that’s a good thing or not. I think about how people act around me, and I determine whether they’re real or just pretending. However, too much thinking can sometimes lead to assuming. Things like love, life, friendships, relationships, my future, everything.
Leaving me with my mind is really quite dangerous.